Neanderthal

In our defense, this innocence.

It tastes like how tears should taste like.

You're only basic and contrived and unexplored

Because I'm a fucking coward, afraid of his own skin

And you're an evil being, in love with herself and in love with satisfaction.

And that's just how it is, but you're mine.

I claim this earth as something prostitute,

Something this dead husk of a hole of a mind cannot comprehend.

You're still my light, though I'm trying to light my own way.

I don't need you, I want you.

I don't need you, I just want you for all my own.

So call me Roger.

I aim to please, darling. I aim to make you wake up wet.

I  choose to aim this cannon towards your heart,

But I should be aiming for your crotch.

Because it's not where the heart that all feelings stem, after all.

Once you're horny,

Once you know where your genitalia sit on the subject,

Then you know when your mind sits.

I trust you are a beacon of maturity.

But holy shit, you're also a blaring reminder of what my fucking neanderthal mind wants.

So click click click click.

Death to it all. Death to me.

Death to me.

I'll never be so primitive yet so commandeering.

Only on my own merits will I be satisfied.

Grew Some Fangs

If all the world’s a stage, then why does mine got no audience?

If life is just a play, who wrote this stupid monologue?

What’s my next line? Why can’t I play the part

Of protagonist, with direction, purpose and charm?

Am I holding out or holding on?

I grew some fangs, I have gruesome fangs.

I wanna be like you, just to feel like I have a place

Like I’m not wasting time, like I’m fine in any way

These fangs of mine, they bite down and rip apart
Only my tongue, and those with wide open arms.

Am I holding out or holding on?

I grew some fangs, I have gruesome fangs.

“I’m not well, I’m well…you know.

I’m vacant and I’m sort of alone.

These fangs thirst, they know what we've become.
They can't rest til it's undone and we're gone."

(Holes inside my head and chest haven't filled since the day you left.
I won't get to rest until a part of me's already dead.)

Am I holding out or holding on?

I grew some fangs, I have gruesome fangs.

Rabbit Hole

Sunk into a Rabbit Hole

And on the other side is where I fell

For months and years I dug about

But found myself inside here still.

Lost inside a rabbit hole

But found there’s safety inside those walls

It never shines, it’s never warm,

Here at the bottom there’s nowhere to fall.

Heaven help me,

I’ve lost footing

And all I want is

To bask in her loving…

Grace is gone in rabbit holes.

The filthy air somehow keeps me alive

You learn to trust the silence there

Cuz every word spoken’s another lie

I lose my mind in rabbit holes.

I’m not myself, just a hungry soul.

I scratch, I gasp, I beg and plead,

But I just dig deeper in rabbit holes.

Heaven help me,

I’ve lost footing

And all I want is

To bask in her loving grace.

Oh Lord No

Oh, Lord

Oh, no

Well, I love all those little things

That are slowly killing me.

You turn deaf on my last breath

Now we’ll wait for me to join,

Join the march of the dead.

Oh Lord, no.

We run in circles, talk in place, how can you?

We can’t outlive our past mistakes, how could you?

And all these talks of suicide, how can I?

Live to see you claim these lies,

The sun stills sets on your glowing pride.

Well, I love all those little things

That are slowly killing me.

You turn deaf on my last breath

Now we’ll wait for me to join,

Join the march of the dead.

Oh Lord, no.

I’ll take the blame, forgive, forget. How can you?

Swallow a drink when I’m upset. How could you?

And still I’m just a child inside, how can I?

Reach out for this dangled prize

While you turn away from those who try?

Well, I love all those little things

That are slowly killing me.

You turn deaf on my last breath

Now we’ll wait for me to join,

Join the march of the dead.

Oh Lord, no.

Talk

My pretty babe that’s so cold and mean,

What do you go and do when you don’t talk to me?

My mind is all gone, and my heart just won’t beat,

I’m losing myself when you don’t talk to me.

I gave you my love, my money and time

For six long hard months, I’ve waited for you.

Now I’m buried alive, with nothing to show

You’ve taken all and ran, but I still wait for you.

My pretty babe that’s so cold and mean,

What do you go and do when you don’t talk to me?

My mind is all gone, and my heart just won’t beat,

I’m losing myself when you don’t talk to me.

I’m barely a man, these days are all the same

I’ve barely got a soul, cuz my name’s dirt in your mouth

You won’t say a word, you don’t say what you do,

You blame it all on me but you don’t make a sound.

My pretty babe that’s so cold and mean,

What do you go and do when you don’t talk to me?

My mind is all gone, and my heart just won’t beat,

I’m losing myself when you don’t talk to me.

My thoughts now are grim, they wander and assume

The worst out of you, cuz there’s no way to know

I see from a distance you living on without me

And it’s breaking my heart to see it’s me you’ve outgrown. 

My pretty babe that’s so cold and mean,

What do you go and do when you don’t talk to me?

My mind is all gone, and my heart just won’t beat,

I’m losing myself when you don’t talk to me.