Ugly

I’ve never felt more ugly
Inside and out
Than when I look at the man
You chose
Over me
To spend all of your time with

I am
Petty
I am small and frail
I want you to build me up
But,
But...
But.
What else can I say?

I am here for a reason.
I am this life because
I am this person because
I am these thoughts because
Who could love me?

Who can
Love
An evil
Person?

Am I evil?
I want to be put down
And surf away
Into sweet nothingness
And just feel
Memories

Memories of
Beauty

I love beauty
Why can’t obtain it
And make it mine?