Sunday, August 1, 2021

Less Less [lyrics]

Shake,
Shake me now, tell me I’m here
In this body, surrounded by love
Break,
Break the sounds so that I hear
Breathy nothings, or lack thereof

Hope, hope for cherry
Bombs blossoming
Hope for the end of wanting wanting

In the 4am glint off the window,
In the white noise hiding in my stereo,
In the tainted skin of my second home,
I want less less

Black,
Purple, pink are your eyelids
Starry specter from a dead bedroom
Mute,
Mute your speak so it’s candid
Blaring so bright, obfuscate the womb

Hope, hope for cherry
Bombs blossoming
Hope for the end of wanting wanting

I’m suspended in disconnect
(Less talk, less truth)
I’m suspended in disconnect
(Less calm, less couth)

In the 4am glint off the window,
In the white noise hiding in my stereo,
In the tainted skin of my second home,
I want less less

From the bar to the grave
From the holes you concave
Disconnect me, disconnect you
I don’t want to, I don’t want to

I’m suspended in disconnect
(Less talk, less truth)
I’m suspended in disconnect
(Less talk, less truth
Less calm, less couth)

In the 4am glint off the window,
In the white noise hiding in my stereo,
In the tainted skin of my second home,
I want less less

Saturday, July 24, 2021

Tolerable Allowance

Nobody said it wasn’t as captivating anymore.
It’s the smell of morning coffee
Directly in front of your face.
It’s the feeling of being hungry
After a night of drinking.

It’s the satisfaction of
Being unsatisfied.

It’s the calm in the air,
The quiet nothing of the morning,
The green, all of the green,
The greenery surrounding.
Encapsulating,
Swallowing,
Taking

The man made beauty.
The challenge of it all
You didn’t build this.
But you get to enjoy it.
You get to.
Allowance.
Tolerable allowance

Someone’s always giving you something,
Or taking just away enough to keep you hungry
You are the dog.

Hedonistic Ignorance

I’ll find you in that same hole,
The same one your mother had once dug
And your brothers had chosen to spit in
To make it warm.
I’ll find you there and lay beside you,
Cold.
Cold dirt,
Cold limbs,
Cold breath.
And I’ll get right out.
You have no other.

Piercing ear drum shapes the silence
Beating back and forth in your skull,
Puncturing your brain with incessant dead
Dead nothing, dead dirt, dead silence.
You’ll grab at my nape,
Sink your nails into my throat,
Claim I was never the victor,
And slip back into that hole.
Slip back into that hole.
Back into that hole.
Into that hole.
That hole.
Hole.

I once held a feral being,
It gnawed at my palms as it scrambled
To get away,
Too narrowed by its own existence to realize
That I was the only thing holding it up
From oblivion.
It gnawed until I bled.
It broke the flesh, it tore the ligaments,
It ravaged muscle, cracked the bone.
I just held it tighter.
Until it broke through,
And fell into
Avoidable
Oblivion.

Wednesday, July 21, 2021

Suspended In Disconnect

I've heard it said that silence is
The sum of all wisdom and all strength, but
We're locked in tension because of it,
Your voice is just a memory.
The clicks and beats of many things
Surround, alleviate at any length, but
Anxiety comes right after it, says
"Is anyone listening?"

Floating

In this body, I can admit to
Feeling
A bit lucid, a bit dreamy.
Apathy for survival,
To succeed
To distance myself from myself from myself
From

Collectively conscious, albeit hopeful
I have successfully detached
This
From me
Whether it’s the pain of wanting
Or the melancholy from giving up
Both are fine. Both are contrived.

Is this success?

American Karma [lyrics]

Between the back and the forth
Where modernity roams
Between the ebb and the flow
Where morality goes

One day you’ll find yourself a
Contemporary lie
Dionysus abides, but your karma aligns
Can you tell me why it’s alright?

I don’t care, no
About your integrity
Or lack thereof:
The new American dream.
The universe tends to unfold
As it should

Sound the alarm:
This weekend horse rides on!
Marquis de Sade
Croons on about your date

One day you’ll find yourself a
Contemporary lie
Can you decide when hedonism dies?

I don’t care, no
About your integrity
Or lack thereof:
The new American dream.
The universe tends to unfold
As it should

Like a burning witch
Sets fire to the sky
Like a politician
Red handed and tried
Karma aligns

The universe is gonna unfold
Just like a glitter bomb smile

Good God, the horror
Of American karma
Good God, the horror
Of American karma

Enjoy

Apathy

It’s a melancholy feeling
When
Someone tells you they have
Fucked
Your previous lover
And you genuinely don’t
Have a reaction to it

When
You genuinely don’t care

It’s a melancholy feeling.

Misfortunate [lyrics]

So who am I to try
And give you sound advice?
I sleep alone behind
A guise of self sacrifice,
It’s just my luck.

Am I the one?
Who drives by your house
To relive coming home to you?
Am I the one?
That cut open the hand
With wounds I licked so lovingly?

I guess I am
Oh I know I am

I choose the wrong route
Black tie & noose
I choose the wrong route
Freudian values

I guess I am
I know I am

Am I the one?
Who can’t let go
Of all the scenes replayed that are too taboo to show?
Communal crimes,
Behind those penetrating eyes
Am I the one?
That picked my own role?
That volunteered to obfuscate at curtain call?

I guess I am
I know I am

I choose the wrong route
Black tie & noose
I choose the wrong route
Freudian values

I guess I am
I know I am

And now, I wait
For hope, for hate
I, don’t, care, no.

Suffer some more
More and more
Same choice and outcome
Guess that’s my luck

Responsible [lyrics]

The laws of attraction
Have permitted us here
It gives me permission
To speak without fear
I now come before you
With no sense of grace
My key is confidence, and
You’re mine without chase

No, I’m not wasted, I’ve just been feeling alone
All alone right now
I’ve gone and made it, a mess of myself and no,
I’m not sticking around

So I get up (I get up)
And I get out (I get out)
The twilight is my guide, I feel it
And I get in (I get in)
Just to let out (to let out)
Fate has matched us up, phI feel it

I was reluctant when I first came out tonight
But then I saw you and now every move is right
I’m not responsible for what I do this night
You got me feeling like a star, I’m burning bright

My mind is buzzing, I know just right words to say
Mind over this matter
I don’t want nothing, just your attention and say
We can’t move much faster

In The Reverse [lyrics]

Expiration dates are laying to waste
On every good thing we have
Under a hot hot beam of itching hot hot needs
Feeling good ain’t so bad

And I know you wanna kill me
But I’m just too clumsy
Stumbling into you to clutch
Everyday is just a way
To dig into the sultry
What I want is more than just love

I’m looking at labels
And getting an angle, okay?
Reversing the process
And seeing my options decay

Hold hands in the cemetery
Look back and feel new things awake
Gothic undertones are sharing
A new mistake

Of yours and mine

Casanova complex having its way
And it won’t seem to die
Having its hot hot say between your hot hot legs
Vice grip on a sharp lie

And I know you wanna be bad
With some good intentions
Close your eyes and open your mouth
Every time I hear you suffer
I can’t help but wonder
Why I keep on digging you out?

I’m looking at labels
And getting an angle, okay?
Reversing the process
And seeing my options decay

Hold hands in the cemetery
Look back and feel new things awake
Gothic undertones are sharing
A new mistake

Of yours and mine
They’re yours and mine
They’re ours
All ours

Feeling around for the bleak,
Taking lovebites together at the dark side of the moon,
We’ve come across our love language.
A dialect of derelicts,
A moan in an empty room.
Everything makes sense to me now,
Now that the tired songs of the lonely are live
When our tongues are braying over each song
And it finally hits your ear,
It’s going to sound like: